Rory Feek/This Life I Live
Almost a month has passed since Joey Feek lost her battle with cancer, and her family is learning to adjust to life without her. In a series of recent blog posts, Rory shared details about his life now that Joey is gone and admits that he is “desperately missing Joey.”
“Indy and I are trying to adjust to our new life at home. To the empty chair at our table and pillow on the other side of my bed. Desperately missing Joey and carrying her in our hearts with us everywhere we go.”
The couple’s 2-year old daughter Indy started preschool a couple of weeks ago…a decision that Joey and Rory made together before Joey’s death. When Joey realized that she wouldn’t have the opportunity to homeschool Indy like she had planned, the couple started researching other options. They eventually chose “High Hopes”, a developmental center that is a preschool and therapy center for children with special needs.
Rory shared the special moment when he and Joey decided on “High Hopes.”
“When I showed this video about their program to Joey, she wiped the tears from her eyes and with a beautiful smile said, ‘that’s the one honey… that’s the one.'” The couple toured the facility and knew right away that it’s where they wanted Indy to be.
“Joey was so excited about Indy getting the chance to come to High Hopes and I was so thankful that she felt great about it. Somehow she managed to transform her disappointment of not getting to raise and teach Indy into a real hope of something even better. I don’t know how, but she did. And she never cried another tear over it.”
Rory wrote in an Easter blog post that he and Indy spend time with Joey everyday and talks to her, sharing details of his day, Indy’s milestones, and other things that she has missed.
“Indy and I go and visit ‘mama’ every day.
We make the walk or ride into the backfield, to the spot where Joey rests and we sit down beside her temporary wooden cross. I talk with my bride about what has happened that day, and what I’m worried or excited about… and I share the latest thing that Indiana is doing.
And our little one plays in the grass beside the flowers. Listening. ‘Talking’ with her hands.
And for a little bit, we’re a family again. Indy is on Joey’s lap and the world is right.”
From Indy attending preschool to the family preparing Joey’s garden for spring planting, Rory is doing his best to honor Joey’s wishes and preserve her legacy for their daughters and the rest of the world. “She wants to be remembered as a singer of songs. A devoted wife. A loving mother. Not a cancer patient.”